The Big 3-0

Well the day has come...tomorrow I turn 30 years old. Over the years I had actually looked forward to this day, I thought ya 30 will be great, Im gonna throw a huge party, they say 30's are a woman's prime, this is gonna be sweet! Well I have to admit, now that the day is here Im a little saddened, a little depressed even. Its seems like I have accomplished so much, yet so little. In the past 12 years I've managed to get 2 marriages, 1 divorce, 3 beautiful boys and some really really great friends under my belt. Yet I feel like I havent accomplished anything. My career is so not where I want it to be, physically Im completely out of shape, still trying to lose 40 very unwanted pounds left by my gorgeous little baby D and no time time to do any of it, no time to change it. I will have to say 30 is going to be a very challenging year for me, both mentally and physically. All of a sudden wrinkles are worrying me, actually looking like a mom is worrying me and being scared there isnt enough time to do all that I had hoped I would do in life is worrying me. Crazy what turning another year can do to a girl, the big 3-0, a little harder to swallow than originally thought. GULP!

Baby Daniel 9 months